Fun firsts....

There's nothing better than having Day tell me we need to have the candied sweet potatoes more often, they are REALLY good. Then after he had his 1st snow-cream he tells me how he needs to have the "recipe" so when he goes out he can do it too. They are both foods that have memories of my mom attached, so it makes it all the sweeter knowing I'm carrying on her love!
Now can't wait to get out tomorrow and hopefully build a snowman! John and I are going to have to take turns out with Day & JJ, so 1 of us is in the house with Jamir of course. There's nothing better than having so many people to share your life with, having so many people who want to share their lives with you too!

My mother's daughter

When my husband tells me that dinner was "good, really good actually" I can't help but get a little glow, a happiness from not only knowing I did something for my guys, but it was something they appreciated, its a double treat! It's the same feeling when I hand a piece of jewelry over to a friend that I made, it makes me feel good to not only do something nice for someone I care about, but to know they like it makes it feel all the more special! Now I know why my Mom took all the time cooking, making pillows, doing alterations, etc. for family and friends. My dad was wrong, she wasn't allowing anyone to take advantage of her, she had her own motives/motivations, and they were all good for all involved!

Hope he/she is happy.....

There's someone out there walking around with my foster-son's MP3 player and ear buds. I hope it makes them feel special, stealing 1 of the few possessions a child has had for them self. That's ok, your due will come, karma is a puta, and you know, its all good, you just gave my boy a lesson on taking care of things so that when he has bigger and brighter things than you in life he will know their worth, he will know to appreciate them. Again, thanks, enjoy your ill-gotten gains. Hope it shorts out in your ears.

Where you going to wear that to?

Went through a couple outfits where John kept asking where was I going to wear this or that to. I listened and would give things away. He said it 1 last time a few months ago. I told him not to worry about it, I'd wear it to the mall or where-ever else I wanted. We arrived separately to JJ's birthday party, he didn't see this til I walked in. He was not complaining! I am done worrying about what anyone thinks about my clothes, him included! Wish I would've felt this way in school!

Thursday Tidbits

I'm behind, the girls in my mom's group brought this up a little while ago, I just looked at it and got the laugh I needed!
http://awkwardfamilyphotos.com/

John and I are getting some DJ stuff on the net. So far I started a facebook page, its in the infant stages, but if you're even been around when he DJed or just want updates, you can find him on facebook under DJFlip Mendoza.

And, my tree is still up. It will get packed away this weekend. But snicker at me all you want, I know for a fact there are still others up too LOL.

Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday! I want to sleep in! Then I get to go out for a few with a friend, and the next day scrap with another, and hopefully the next day catch a football game with yet another!

A "good quality" hurts the worse

I'm the type of person I will give you the shirt off my back in a heartbeat. I WANT to do it, the same my mom did. But on that same note, I hurt just like my mom did when I feel unappreciated, or under-valued by those I care about. Right now, as some may know, there have been issues in regards to my Dad. Most know it was rally my mom who raised me. My dad was the type who if I wanted to spend time with him, it was on his territory - watching boxing, football, going fishing, or a walk in the woods. Sheesh, I even gutted a deer with him and that was not because I WANTED to! Now, my mom, we were the best of friends! Shopping each week, trips to see family to parties, talks, movies, card games, etc. She disciplined me and taught me my values. I was jipped when she passed away, and frankly so was JJ. But, because I spent so much time with her, I am like her - I pay for my dad's phone, but he can never call me. I send him candy, books, movies, etc but he can't send me a birthday card. As soon as we get to his house at 6:30 at night, he's out the door to his girlfriend, twice that same night! She got mad because he only went over for 15 minutes the second time so he told me he had to stay later the next time! What about me? I live 16 hours away and only see him a total of 7 days out of the year! And we all knew he was bad with money, so what do we do, John and I both buy him groceries while we are there, and not even a thank you! He can go on 2 cruises this past year, but not once will he come visit me. He will buy his girlfriend things hand over fist (blowing 6 figure!) but he says he won't buy me stuff because we make more he can ever make.
But, the thing about me that makes me want to do so much is the same part that allows me to hurt so much when I don't feel special to him. I'm not asking for anything in return really, just to acknowledge that I am his flesh and blood! I can't stop myself from doing stuff for him, I love him, I am his daughter, I'm supposed to care for him and there's nothing I can do to stop that. But, how in the world can I stop it from hurting me?
We've been home almost a week now. He has not even called to see that we made it home safely, let alone just to say "hi."

Oh, how Texas makes me so happy....

I'm going to get right to the big deal, my brother only has 6 days left in Iraq! I'm so happy he will be getting out soon and will be stateside, in TEXAS! We are already planning our trip out this summer! I can't wait! It will be almost 3 years since I saw Joe, I miss him so much, this trip has me counting down when school lets out with much more enthusiasm than Day has himself! Gotta find some boots since I gave my last pair away, you know what they say, when in Rome.....

Next, much more trivial, is my Cowboys - gotta love the football nights in our house, John was even rooting for them for me tonight, must've worked, they shut out Philly for the Division title! To top it off, JJ told me last night he wants to root for the Cowboys too, what a proud momma that makes me ;) Now, since John said he's given up on his Deadskins, I just need to work on him coming over to the Blue side, as well as helping Day choose the right football team to cheer for.

Happy New Year!

Hope everyone started their New Year out the way they want the year to go! Unfortunately I really hope that's not true, I barely registered my hubby kissing my cheek while I tried to shut out the light with the blanket, thanks all to a mini-migraine. Better now at least.
I'm glad not to make the resolution this year to quit smoking. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed to "keep the quit" instead. Thanks to all those who have helped me with quitting. The support in all aspects of life boosts me up!
So, instead for this year I'm going to resolve to do more calming things to help me not want to smoke. More scrapping (and getting back into the digital side of it) more jewelry for fun (not just because of gift giving times) and I want to get the sewing machine back out and do a little more with it (I already have 2 purses in mind to make out of this awesome material I have.)
I also think all those board games need to go to use, the commercials for family game night need to be tested out. I have great memories from growing up of Monopoly, rummy, and pitch. The video games need a rest - though I do plan on getting Sing Star to annoy John ;)
Figured these resolutions will be easy to keep this year, all fun stuff!