I don't normally discuss anything religious because I do not believe in pushing my beliefs on others nor do I feel my spiritual relationship should be questioned by anyone else. But this week was just too much not to share.
Lately I have felt I am not enough. The three little ones are all so attached to me and I still have my two older ones with fun senior things going on to keep in order. I feel like I need a few clones of myself to spend time with each of them and a few more to do laundry, cook, clean, and grocery shop. I have felt guilty because I WANT the individual time with each of my kids, but it is hard. Many doubts go through my head. I almost missed JJ's Art Show at our Board of Education today, I just can't keep up!
I finally let go, and prayed on it. I gave it all over to God and Jesus. Of course the peace alone for just getting my worries off my chest is immediate and honestly quite enough. But the very next day a woman in Wal-Mart warmed my heart, telling Molly how lucky she is, that mommy is so set on what is good for her, and telling Molly she is part of the Jolie-Pitt family, which gave me a light hearted giggle. And she thanked me for our family, telling me that she works with homeless kids and knows the need. Then yesterday, while in Food Lion a half a dozen people had nice comments for my kids, and then a woman began talking with my kids while being checked out. Come to find out she had also fostered and adopted and was telling me about her own family.
I believe those two women were put in my path for a reason, because I asked for help. No, God isn't going to give me two extra arms or turn me into Supermom, but he will bolster my spirits, give me people when I need them just to remind me why I have chosen my family, and why he chose to fulfill the wish for my family. For this (and many other things) I am grateful. Just goes to show, all you have to do is ask. ASAP (always send a prayer)
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